I blog because I love to write, want to keep my KY people connected and because it forces me to confront myself, the people around me and really embrace life head on!
I originally thought my blog would be a foodie blog because when I started it I was cooking a lot, but it really turned into a personal diary entry (with sensors!) about my life in the city. I told her I tend to blog when I'm sad, because when I'm happy I am busy living it and embracing all the sweet things in life. She thought this was a funny thing, and I started thinking about it and thought I should start blogging when I'm happy too. I'm not certain I can commit because I do tend to write more when I have a lot on my mind on a more emotional/ dramatic level. I'm not sure what all that means. I feel like I'm pretty even keeled about things, but sometimes I have a lot of things on my mind that needs releasing. So anyway, nothing too crazy going on in my life, as I'm simply just trying to figure it all out one day at a time. Here's the latest.
Josh and I took a trip to Colorado to ski the mountains of Aspen. It was a pretty perfect amazing trip that I couldn't have thought up better in my secret imagination. It was easy going with lots of laughter, no drama, great weather, good food, great skiing, AMAZING accommodations at Hotel Jerome and even consisted of a pit stop at a casino. Well, we actually stopped on the way to Aspen outside of Denver and one stop on the way back to redeem the first time! I learned a little more about black jack, the strategy, the rules, the highs and the lows of it (aka wins and losses) and learned that non-smoking casinos do exist and still generate lots of money! Kentucky- get with it! I had so much fun and really enjoyed spending time with him. Traveling is usually when I can stress out the most, and it was effortless and I was well taken care of.
I had two good days skiing at Aspen Snowmass and the third day really got myself into a challenge at Aspen Highlands. It was way to hard for my confidence level and it took me almost 45 minutes to get down the mountain on the first run. I fell, cried, thought I was going to die a lot, hated life for a few seconds, had an anxiety attack, got really angry, then really sad, really scared and cussed myself out... and then I made it to the bottom! There weren't signs on which runs were green and so I ended up going down blues that felt like suicide (drama queen, yes!) and just felt out of control the whole way down. I am not a fast skier. I am cautious, like to be in control and take my time down. I usually ski solo because everyone is really good and I'm okay with being by myself with no pressure and time to just cruise the bottom part of the mountain! This mountain was just not for me! I was in the lift line trying to stall going back up and Josh came through the line. He offered to go down with me and find me a a little route that I could keep going down. He's a really good border and I felt bad because I didn't want to take time away from him. I told him to leave me, but he insisted and we found a route that was manageable. I went down one time after that with Josh and a sales rep and she offered that we set up a lesson for me. She was very generous and got a lesson set up with the ski school manager, who I was told was a bit older but an incredible skier who would teach me something. Weems was his name and he really did save my day! He is an amazing skier who gave me lots of pointers and helped me get down the mountain without feeling like it was the end of the world. He even gave me a lot of advice, a big hug at the end (we literally just did one run together, but it felt like we had known each other for a whole day), a signed copy of his book and the encouragement I needed for the next day! So glad that happened! The next day Josh did Aspen and I attempted Buttermilk, but couldn't find parking because of the X-Games, so I went back to Snowmass, did a couple runs and then returned my equipment. Skiing is really fun, but it's a lot of work and I think it's a lot like giving birth in that you don't remember the hard work and pain, but the bliss and accomplishment after the fact. That's why it keeps happening. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right? Or as Lori just amended, "what tries to kill us, makes us smarter."
Heading to Florida next weekend for a girls trip I had planned last September. I had extra money then from nannying and thought it would be nice to get all my besties together for some fun in the sun. I don't have the extra money now, but I am excited to go and see Rachael, Sarah, Jaime and Lori in South Florida. It's a quick trip, but I will get the vitamin D, warmth and laughter needed to get me through the months I won't see their beautiful faces! I keep telling myself "YOLO," which means you only live once! So with that, I'm just going to keep living in the moment, being and doing what makes me really happy!
Much love from the city. xo